Baby, You Should Go and Love Yourself

Have you ever taken a picture and was like “Ew I don’t look good/I look so fat”? Fast forward time… you’re going through old photos of yourself and realize: “God damn, I didn’t even look that bad.” And now you take pictures of yourself and think: “Efff… the hell happened to you?” I bet another few months or years from now, I’m gonna look back and think to myself why I put myself down so much! Hopefully, that’s the day I’ll truly love myself. My sister knows and so do my closest friends, that when it comes to what I wear and how I look, I’m sooooo self conscious! No matter how many times I ask if I look okay and I hear a clear yes, I’m never truly satisfied. Why? Because I’m still learning to love myself. Insecurities sure know how to get the best of us. One moment you feel confident, sexy and beautiful walking into Surangel (sometimes I go to Surangel just so that my outfit of the day doesn’t go to waste 😅) and one day you’re naked standing in front of the mirror feeling like an alien mutation. Actually that’s too much, I’ll just say poop. You’re probably wondering how in the hell I could possibly degrade myself that much [hehe], but that’s the reality of being exposed to and influenced by what media deems as the ideal perception of beauty.

How can I pull myself out of something so deep? How can I convince myself that I’m beautiful? People turn to diets, make up, shopping, and even plastic surgery. We all handle it in different ways, and I only hope and pray that the steps we take towards self love are safe, healthy, and ever so gracious and tender.

It’s so easy to say that someone else is beautiful, yet so hard to convince  ourselves that we, too, are beautiful. From experience, I learned that most of what I worried about with my body, people could care less about, literally giving no flying fart (for example, stretch marks). So, for the sake of self love! Calling men and women alike! Let’s help each other focus our energy on what truly defines our beauty like improving our values or eating healthier.

Writing this, I envision my mom and dad smiling together in my head and I  think to myself what a wonderful world (just kidding the song came up in my head) but in all seriousness I think, “Wow! How powerful is the love they share, that life itself was created out of it!” No one else can be this unique fusion of Tommy and Debbie! I was made with love, I’m filled with love, and I want to share this love! That energy and spirit within me resonates beyond any of my physical attributes, surpassing any false image media forces on me, and that makes me beautiful.